Is this what it feels like?

"Is this what it feels like to die?

the thunder of confusion, raining down on me as if it's made a valuable contribution

lying in my, mind's eye, no wonder my brain is filled with so much confusion

it's a, wonder that I've made it this far, sometimes I wonder how far

and how far is too far? when you're too far gone? 

Is this what it feels like to die?

I don't know myself, I've been listening for a minute but never can find the reason and expose myself

I am my best enemy, and the worst of friends

Is this what it feels like to die?

I can feel it in my heart

it's been drawn out from days anticipating the father that never showed up

I can feel it in my heart

nobody going to save me, god doesn't have the answers for me

is this what it feels like to die?

I live in hunger, like a constant starvation

I want to learn, grow, and reach my full potential

how will I ever feed the soul the food it needs to grow

if the food I sow is a weed and so

god damn clouded, wet and drenched in this rain storm

is this what it feels like to die?

I'm numb to the suffering

dumb to the fuckery

done with the trickery and all this hate

Is this what it feels like to die?

scratching at the walls that make up my cage

staring out of a pidgin hole in a fit of rage

trapped and suffocating, literally

Is this what it feels like to die?

I can only tell what direction I'm falling

based on all of the trailing images of light

is fading, my life is failing

Is this what it feels like to die?

I stare off into space, seeking nothingness

unintentionally, I dive into emptiness

Is this what it feels like to die?

And if not

Is this what it feels like to live?"

-Nova King 12-2025